dissociation as a form of coping
of course, we know this from psycho assessment

im feeling the pressure again
of all my wrongs
like my skull might crack open with the hating
pervading noise

dry and heavy
frictioned to the floor
and stuck to whatever place i feel so much disdain for

you enter
talk
and all i want to do whilst waiting
for you to walk back out the door
is tear through your mannequined corpse
and ionise
out to the graveyard
escaping this prison
i want to run as fast as i can
so that my legs & lungs are burning
and my eyes are dotted in lumps or spots
when i arrive at the welcoming rectangle
look down
and see fresh linen already laid there for my sore body to crawl
i want to slam the slab over top
with so much force
that my eardrums pop
and i never have to listen to another thing
that comes from your fucking thoughts

you exit
and i resume my self disgust
for the extent of time it takes for my mind to slip back off
my visions to completely dissolve, from adrenal focus, to menial blurs
back to reveries
back to delusional forms of self worth
back to the safe, fuzzy world
my dissociations.

So To Stay Sane This Evening (Digital Signature), 2025
Owen Marshall

16 x 12 ” Board